God Carried Me

I wanted to share a testimony about something that happened this week. My wife had been really sick for a few days and I had been taking care of her, the house, and the kids while also working hard to close out an important sales quarter for my company. I was getting exhausted by Tuesday night but I needed 3-4 evening hours after the kids went to sleep to work on a presentation for an onsite customer meeting in Dallas. The trouble was I started to feel not just tired but sick.. I made a stressful decision to get some sleep and work on the presentation the following morning - always a risk as busy as my job is.

In order to not get sick I decided to sleep in- and miss my time with the Lord. I am getting more relational and less legalistic these days.

I had nothing prepared late morning but was trying to trust God anyway. I received a phone call while wrestling with this that the client needed to push the meeting to the next day! I ended up having plenty of time to create and deliver a solid presentation.

Here I was, forced to not work late as I needed to, missed my prayer time, and God arranged a perfect outcome to help me and the customer as well. The Lord arranged everything on His own and created this - this was not an answer to a prayer request - God just did it.

I was totally stunned by this for a full two days - couldn't stop thinking about it because I was physically unable to help myself and was even hindered to put God first in my day. Yet God spoke through time and circumstances and gave me a life experience clearly telling me this was not a conditional relationship I have with Him. He will not help me only if I follow a certain spiritual discipline. As my Father, and as my business partner, His love and help come from who He is- and are not gained from Him by my effort. I am struggling to share what this means to me..

I can now understand better the strength of my relationship with God, or rather... the relationship He offers to me.

I feel like I am slowly waking up spiritually as layer after layer of spiritual sleep are peeled off of me by the Lord through my time with Him and experiences the Lord puts me through to teach me. The most amazing part of this spiritual awakening is the startling joy I continue to find as I know Him better.

This is available to us all as we seek the Lord.